It’s everywhere. In my bed. On my clothes. In my food. All over the house. I even spot strands of it stuck to my children and my husband. Probably from hugs. I’ve been out of ICU for about 12 weeks, and now I’m losing my hair. Handfuls, brushes and combs full. For the past month. And it’s… Read More Losing it
I have been debating for weeks–months even–about this post. Perhaps you will think me crude or inappropriate for approaching the subject of female anatomy in this manner. But in a culture where breasts are openly displayed, discussed, and ogled, I feel the need to add my unique perspective to the public dialogue. I realize this subject might… Read More Big fat boobs
What is real? Do we even know anymore? In a world where … most of the music we listen to starts with a human voice but is mixed in a studio and edited to perfection, much of the food we eat is genetically modified and then processed, the image of children “playing” usually involves some… Read More Manufactured
Flashback to July 22, 2012 … “I am satisfied that the more unkindly a wife is treated, the less attractive she becomes. She loses pride in herself. She develops a feeling of worthlessness. Of course it shows.”* I have been thinking about this quotation a lot since I left my husband six months ago. I… Read More Starting to remember
It’s Wear Purple Wednesday! Show your support for National Eating Disorders Awareness this week. In the mean time, want to know what this thing is really about? Don’t really get it? Wonder what it’s like to be in the head of an amazingly gorgeous person (inside and out) who has a life-threatening eating disorder? My incredibly… Read More Beauty and the Purple Beast
I’m running again. The sweat burns my eyes. My heart pounds in rhythm with my footsteps. I slam my feet down angrily, wishing I could flatten my love handles as easily as I hammer the soft path beneath my sneakers. I awaken the next morning and the next and the next … and she’s still… Read More Eat me
[Have you read the Introduction yet? Start here.] April 2012 – Here’s the real deal: I am at a huge crossroads in my life right now, and I have a chance to make some big changes for the better if I embrace the opportunity I’ve been given. That being said, I obviously have some major body image issues to… Read More Body Image Series, Conclusion: So, what am I supposed to look like?
[Have you read the Introduction yet? Start here.] April 2012 – There are so many fad diets out there. I would love to do this fast! Right now! But I’m not sure that’s the most healthy way. And I’m also not sure it would stick anyway. So, the plan is limit the calories, increase the exercise. That’s pretty straightforward,… Read More Body Image Series, Part 6: What is the healthy way?
[Have you read the Introduction yet? Start here.] April 2012 – My poor body. It has been through so much. Just in the past three years, I’ve had a car accident (resulting in full-body whiplash and a softball-sized pancreatic cyst), major abdominal surgery (pancreatectomy/spleenectomy), a pregnancy, and a c-section (less than a year after the pancreatectomy, and my second… Read More Body Image Series, Part 5: Physical trauma & bouncing back