April 2012 – I like to look nice. And I know how to do my makeup. Hair? Uh. I guess I don’t get it. I guess you could say I’m ’round-brush challenged.’ My hair is naturally a little wild and semi-curly, so I tend to scrunch-and-go or pull it into a bun or ponytail.
In my past life I was very self-conscious and done-up a lot of the time. Okay, every day, always. In high school and college, I would do a touch-up on my face between every class. Once a girl razzed me for sneaking out my pressed powder before we got out of the car at the beach. Now? Not so much. Actually, I’ve sometimes prided myself, convinced it’s because I’m so ‘wise’ and ‘mature’ now and more ‘comfortable with myself’ than I once was. (Can’t you just see me patting myself on the back?) But let’s face it. I have two crazy boys and have been an in-cognito semi-single mom for about five years (guess who was doing pretty much all the dirty work on the family scene). Taking care of my hair and makeup just hasn’t been a priority for a long time. I always come last after tying shoes, bath time, cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, carpool, music lessons, school, laundry … you know the drill. In the end, I wonder whether it really just comes down to not taking care of myself rather than being ‘confident’ and ‘natural.’ And I’m really torn about whether this is something I should work on.
And don’t get me started on the number of times I’ve wondered whether not working on it led, at least in some small way, to my husband’s porn addiction–which I KNOW is ludicrous and such a cop out. But I can’t help thinking it…
What about you? What are your thoughts about a woman being ‘done up’ with regards to hair, makeup, nails, etc.? How does that relate to body image and beauty in your mind?